Friday, August 3, 2012
I weighed in this morning at 152 pounds. Wow! Isn't that amazing? I think so. Who would have ever thunk it? Me! 150 pounds! Certainly not me. And imagine why people think I'm nuts when I say I still see 250 pounds looking back at me in the mirror. I know it's a head game, I just read another post about head games. It will pass eventually. I can't wait.
I recently ended up having an emergency surgery for a blocked bowel. Can I tell you that I am a nurse and I have a high pain tolerance......this was the most awful pain I can ever remember having. Now of course everyone who heard about it, like my boss and some family members, had the same first thought..."It's because of that weight loss surgery....see I told you not to have it". I am here to tell you that it had absolutely nothing to do with my WLS. NOTHING!!! My WLS surgeon even called me the day before my surgery as I was in a different hospital and offered to have me transferred to his hospital to have him do the operation. I didn't feel the need because it had nothing to do with that surgery. I didn't have a bypass so I had nothing re-routed...I just had some of my stomach removed and the blockage and twisting of the bowel was way down in the right lower quadrant....no where near the sleeve. I'm healing slowly and I realize I am not as young as I once was but all in all things are okay.
I had 9 days in the hospital to reflect and think and shut up and listen, finally, to God. I truly think this had something to do with the fact that I don't listen to him enough even when he is talking to me in bold print!!!! But after this hospital stay there have been many more changes in our house and our lives....all for the better. So you can not find fault in that. I have three beautiful kids that I just adore and I wouldn't trade them for the world....okay I may think about a day or two when they are really wound up like today but for the most part it's all good.
That's it for me for today. Have a good one all.
I recently ended up having an emergency surgery for a blocked bowel. Can I tell you that I am a nurse and I have a high pain tolerance......this was the most awful pain I can ever remember having. Now of course everyone who heard about it, like my boss and some family members, had the same first thought..."It's because of that weight loss surgery....see I told you not to have it". I am here to tell you that it had absolutely nothing to do with my WLS. NOTHING!!! My WLS surgeon even called me the day before my surgery as I was in a different hospital and offered to have me transferred to his hospital to have him do the operation. I didn't feel the need because it had nothing to do with that surgery. I didn't have a bypass so I had nothing re-routed...I just had some of my stomach removed and the blockage and twisting of the bowel was way down in the right lower quadrant....no where near the sleeve. I'm healing slowly and I realize I am not as young as I once was but all in all things are okay.
I had 9 days in the hospital to reflect and think and shut up and listen, finally, to God. I truly think this had something to do with the fact that I don't listen to him enough even when he is talking to me in bold print!!!! But after this hospital stay there have been many more changes in our house and our lives....all for the better. So you can not find fault in that. I have three beautiful kids that I just adore and I wouldn't trade them for the world....okay I may think about a day or two when they are really wound up like today but for the most part it's all good.
That's it for me for today. Have a good one all.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
What an amazing year. Oh my gosh. I started out with a goal of 170 pounds or better yet a size 12. Well, I have past both of those goals and now I am a bit worried. I'm not sure where to go from here.
I still can't get protein in the quantity that I should but I do try. My sleeve has been great. I can pretty much eat anything I need to or want to.
On July 12 I ended up having emergency surgery for a blocked small bowel. Talk about painful!!!!! I have been reassured that it had nothing to do with my sleeve but I find it strange that I got adhesions from a 30+ year old incision? I'm a nurse and I'm not real sure about all that but for now I am thankful that I am recouperating and I didn't have to have a colonostomy performed.
So I am down below my wildest dreams ever but when I look in the mirror I don't see it. Of course I see the hanging skin and the wrinkles and the fact that I look like I have aged 20 years but I still see fat. People tell me I look amazing and tiny! What? Tiny? Me? What a joke. Tiny to me does not include my name in any way. So I will rephrase it tinier than what I was. How is that? I am happy with my weight loss and after this emergency surgery I think I will be happy with all my extra skin too because honestly this surgery hurt.....do I want to do that to myself? I don't know. Time will tell.
I still can't get protein in the quantity that I should but I do try. My sleeve has been great. I can pretty much eat anything I need to or want to.
On July 12 I ended up having emergency surgery for a blocked small bowel. Talk about painful!!!!! I have been reassured that it had nothing to do with my sleeve but I find it strange that I got adhesions from a 30+ year old incision? I'm a nurse and I'm not real sure about all that but for now I am thankful that I am recouperating and I didn't have to have a colonostomy performed.
So I am down below my wildest dreams ever but when I look in the mirror I don't see it. Of course I see the hanging skin and the wrinkles and the fact that I look like I have aged 20 years but I still see fat. People tell me I look amazing and tiny! What? Tiny? Me? What a joke. Tiny to me does not include my name in any way. So I will rephrase it tinier than what I was. How is that? I am happy with my weight loss and after this emergency surgery I think I will be happy with all my extra skin too because honestly this surgery hurt.....do I want to do that to myself? I don't know. Time will tell.
Monday, May 28, 2012
I went to Walmart the other day to pick up a few things and I happened to see a cute shirt hanging on a rack. My first reaction was "too bad I can't wear that". I went on down the aisle. I stopped, came back, checked the size....I BOUGHT IT!!!!!!! It was a large and it is a bit tighter than I think I should wear but I got it by darned.
How exciting is that? OMG, I know it has been six months since my surgery but I am finding out so many things about me here lately! I still can't seem to get my protein in but let me tell ya....I was never a sweet or chocolate eater...and now me and babe ruth are on first name basis. I know I should stop but I am addicted. I am aware of it though and will definitely have to watch. I also find that I can eat chicken tenders or chicken planks from long johns. Only 1-1 1/2 but still. I should not be able to eat that.....I don't want to be able to eat that. It's in my head...fix my head fix my head.
Was able to get in the pool today because the water temp finally got above 80. That was nice and I did lay out a bit. Of course I fell asleep and do you think one of the 6 kids would have said "turn over"??? Oh heavens no. One woke me to ask if she could go with a friend, the next one woke me to tell me the other one had left with a friend, the next one woke me to ask about his laptop, and another one woke me to ask me if I knew where the other one's laptop was and it is broken. But say "hey mom, turn over you are burning?????" Have a good one.
How exciting is that? OMG, I know it has been six months since my surgery but I am finding out so many things about me here lately! I still can't seem to get my protein in but let me tell ya....I was never a sweet or chocolate eater...and now me and babe ruth are on first name basis. I know I should stop but I am addicted. I am aware of it though and will definitely have to watch. I also find that I can eat chicken tenders or chicken planks from long johns. Only 1-1 1/2 but still. I should not be able to eat that.....I don't want to be able to eat that. It's in my head...fix my head fix my head.
Was able to get in the pool today because the water temp finally got above 80. That was nice and I did lay out a bit. Of course I fell asleep and do you think one of the 6 kids would have said "turn over"??? Oh heavens no. One woke me to ask if she could go with a friend, the next one woke me to tell me the other one had left with a friend, the next one woke me to ask about his laptop, and another one woke me to ask me if I knew where the other one's laptop was and it is broken. But say "hey mom, turn over you are burning?????" Have a good one.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
It has been quite some time since I last posted. Who knows where the time goes but it certainly goes fast.
This morning I weighed in at 165.6pounds! I see that number and I am amazed. I still don't believe it is my weight. Surely it is someone elses! Today marks 6 months since my sleeve was done. Oh the changes in the last 6 months make me shake my head.
I recently had the opportunity to get some new clothes. We, a bunch of friends and I, were in Old Navy. I had never been able to buy clothes there because they just didn't fit. Long story short I was able to fit into a size 12 capri!!! I cried, friends cried and I went to two more stores to test the theory that it was just the way they were made. I was able to get size 12's in all the stores! I still don't think of myself as "thin" but I certainly am getting the compliments so I am definitely going in the right direction.
I am able to eat more now too. I can get in way more calories and have been really working hard on getting my protein in. Still haven't mastered taking the pills I should but baby steps here. I no longer have buyers remorse. I am so glad I had the surgery.
Thanks for all the support.
This morning I weighed in at 165.6pounds! I see that number and I am amazed. I still don't believe it is my weight. Surely it is someone elses! Today marks 6 months since my sleeve was done. Oh the changes in the last 6 months make me shake my head.
I recently had the opportunity to get some new clothes. We, a bunch of friends and I, were in Old Navy. I had never been able to buy clothes there because they just didn't fit. Long story short I was able to fit into a size 12 capri!!! I cried, friends cried and I went to two more stores to test the theory that it was just the way they were made. I was able to get size 12's in all the stores! I still don't think of myself as "thin" but I certainly am getting the compliments so I am definitely going in the right direction.
I am able to eat more now too. I can get in way more calories and have been really working hard on getting my protein in. Still haven't mastered taking the pills I should but baby steps here. I no longer have buyers remorse. I am so glad I had the surgery.
Thanks for all the support.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
bout time
I haven't posted in like forever and there is no reason really. I have been so very busy with work and our foster kids as well as our bio kids. Currently we have four foster kids in our home, 17, 12, 3, and 6 months. With their Dr. appts. and Dentist appts, and pulmonologists and on and on and on it has been quite crazy.
To date I really don't know where I stand in the health department. I went to the surgeon for my three month follow up and they said words like, you have done better than anticipated....you have lost 50% of your excess body weight instead of the 35% we predicted. Keep up the good work.
Okay, that is all nice to hear but......my diet still consists of under 400 calories a day, less than 20 grams of protein and under 20 ounces of fluid! So do I have a grip on lifelong nutrition? OH HELL NO. It is getting better in the respect that I can eat different stuff now but I still can't take any of the vitamins and stuff cuz they fill me up so bad that I can't eat then. I can't stomach the chewables either like pre surgery.
Fluids are better however I can't stand the thought of a protein drink of any kind. Before surgery I couldn't wait for the shake but now....yuck. I have been assured that it will get better and it will. So I just plow along. I find that I am craving stuff now that I never craved before surgery....like pastry. I am not a big sweet eater so this surprises me.
I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 179.6 which is down 66.4 from my heaviest, 59.4 from my first appt. with the surgeon and 50 pounds since day of surgery. My clothes are bigger of course but when I look into the mirror I still see 246 pounds. I am complaining today....it will get better. I know this. I read what all of you have done and how happy you are and I know my turn is coming. Thanks.
To date I really don't know where I stand in the health department. I went to the surgeon for my three month follow up and they said words like, you have done better than anticipated....you have lost 50% of your excess body weight instead of the 35% we predicted. Keep up the good work.
Okay, that is all nice to hear but......my diet still consists of under 400 calories a day, less than 20 grams of protein and under 20 ounces of fluid! So do I have a grip on lifelong nutrition? OH HELL NO. It is getting better in the respect that I can eat different stuff now but I still can't take any of the vitamins and stuff cuz they fill me up so bad that I can't eat then. I can't stomach the chewables either like pre surgery.
Fluids are better however I can't stand the thought of a protein drink of any kind. Before surgery I couldn't wait for the shake but now....yuck. I have been assured that it will get better and it will. So I just plow along. I find that I am craving stuff now that I never craved before surgery....like pastry. I am not a big sweet eater so this surprises me.
I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 179.6 which is down 66.4 from my heaviest, 59.4 from my first appt. with the surgeon and 50 pounds since day of surgery. My clothes are bigger of course but when I look into the mirror I still see 246 pounds. I am complaining today....it will get better. I know this. I read what all of you have done and how happy you are and I know my turn is coming. Thanks.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Happy New Year!!!!!
I can happily report that I started out 2012 in ONEDERLAND!!!! I raced to the scale yesterday morning and sure enough I was in the one hundreds. I had been seeing a few 190's numbers but they would quickly disappear but I don't care....that is my story and I'm sticking to it.
I still see "fat" in the mirror and that is okay. I have gone down to a size 20 jean...snug in the waist, baggy in butt and legs as usual but nonetheless, not size 24/26. I am happy. I don't know if I can say I love my sleeve yet but I do love the fact that I can get up out of my recliner without help and I can work for twelve hours and not cry with pain in my legs. So I love the results I'm getting, just not getting there. I'm still having real troubles getting in the fluid, food and proteins. I will get there though.
Happy New Year to all of you.
I still see "fat" in the mirror and that is okay. I have gone down to a size 20 jean...snug in the waist, baggy in butt and legs as usual but nonetheless, not size 24/26. I am happy. I don't know if I can say I love my sleeve yet but I do love the fact that I can get up out of my recliner without help and I can work for twelve hours and not cry with pain in my legs. So I love the results I'm getting, just not getting there. I'm still having real troubles getting in the fluid, food and proteins. I will get there though.
Happy New Year to all of you.
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